fuckk! school is extremely boring i just dont feel like attending anymore. i feel forced to chiong practice papers. and definately, the huge mountains of homework is killing. a maths is such a turn-off. the paper is super hard luh. so discouraging. moreover the look of it just bores me out to much, i would only want to sleep. if only, the break has already started, i think self-revision will benefit me more. at least i can study to my own pace. not a superman, so i do not have a super power in long hours of concentration.

now, i'm at home writing my notes. muhahahs. feel much more comfortable. wearing casual clothes, lying on my bed and eating sweets. heavenly luhh! tomorrow, i wouldnt be attending school. not feeling well lately too. with those frequent headaches. but fel, cheer up :D tomorrow would be better. this day's rest will help me get back on my feet. jiayou!

pouttie loves her potty.
honey, you can do it.

it's finally the end of the prelims for me..
i'm dying from the pressure..
i hate EXAMS.
eew..wad are they man..
i fear for the worse yet i hope for the best.
DARRLINGG.she uh..
she's worried most of the time..
upset about my blueblack eye..
depressed about almost everything that's happening ard her.
but hey,i'm here sia.
serious.
sorry,i made you wait that long.
i was dreaming..
but in the end i still woke up and look for you.
i'm still enthralled by your sweet smile.
i still love the way your hugs are so warm.
i'm still mad about your kisses.
still yearning to hold you close to me.
you'll always be my jiggly-pout okays!

jade~

well, today is a torture. initially i looked forward to school thinking that when the prelims come to an end. there will be a little time for me to catch my breath and probably, just take a break. but oh my, what stupid career seminar. the speakers, some of which spoke in some weird accent. i guessed hardly any of us could understand. they repeated the subject combinations and stuffs. i was going crazy. i tried to sleep since i had darling's hood with me. but its hard since the table is kinda low. i still managed to sleep listening to the chantings of speakers. i give up. at least i wouldn't disrupt the seminar :)

went home straightaway after school. darling got me all worried out. she seemed to have gone missing for hours. i skipped my dinner though i was hungry. texted her a few times. and finally, she replied. oh well. i'm just thinking too much. she hadnt met into any trouble. just fast asleep for a long time. she must be extremely tired out. honey, do take care. loves and misses.

mummy was extremely fun and loving. joking around and even brought us out for ice cream after dinner. ate haarto's waffle ice cream. nice. i had strawberry. woahh soo sweet i love it and ate every bite of it.

tomorrow i'll be out on a date with xuan. muhahahs. let have a fun time watching movie and stuffs!

hugs>.<

for the past one week i was so busy preparing with the prelims advance papers that i didnt blog.
anyway, i had social studies and english paper 1 on the first day. hhermms. very bad. i probably used up all my memory space in my brain for ss. all the sec 3 and 4 topics. gosh! its alot. the second day was worst. i had chinese paper 1 and also a maths paper 2. super bad. its the worst i ever taken. chinese i almost didnt finish writing my composition. last minute decided to crap nonstop and just end abruptly. a maths paper 2 was crazy. i find the questions foreign. as though it wasnt written in english. i didnt understand a thing. shall prepare to do badly. ridiculous! i haven seen those kinda questions before! hahas! whateverr. its over. die le. on the third day was english paper 2. and finally i'm over with the advance papers. i cant wait for the sept hols.

today, we had acers day. sec 4s doing the vertical run. we had to run 3 storeys up with a heavy bag of approx. 5 kg then string it down to pass to the next pair. the winner would be the class with the most number of trips made. however, there was a shock trap. so we were very careful with it. wifey, kuku and shaun lin working with the strings. we were short of pairs here and there. so i made at least 7 trips?.. hahas i was in-charge of getting each pair ready and sin yee helped with the unloading of the bag. thanks to everyone's cooperation, we got first. yeahhh! e7 champions forever! muhahahhs. we dedicated the prize to our candy form teacher, mrs ang. hahas. everyone had alot of fun. and during the concert, i couldnt bother about the rest but woahh. linette sang very well while dominic played the piano so perfectly. they were dressed very elegantly too =) i love maskedteaRS! the best item of all. everyone was enjoying themselves to the fullest while performing. i'm impressed though didnt get to see shikky's solo performance in class. we even took class pictures. i love the class spirit. i think i'm gonna miss it when we leave the school. but everyone in class is indispensable. misses to all!

now, i'm at home waiting for darling to come. hhermms. she just said that she's bored. probably its boring to meet me?.. i dont know. wahhahhs. nevermind T.T

today is amazing. hahas i applause for the combined efforts of dear e7 classmate who wanted the auditions to carry out so smoothly. well, i think we did quite okay. though in the end the performance got screwed up. i shall say, hhermms doesnt seem like our fault. its just purely bad luck and the lousy people who dont understand how difficult to prepare something like this. so they can put us down without hesitating. wtf! van's right. we're not gonna waste our effort on such losers. =) we had fun after all and the whole process of preparation was entertaining. anyway congrats to masked tears! super wonderful performance today! kuku didnt miss a single step. jiayou!

however, something is worrying me. whats with the uprising number of cases friends around me have been getting. its already the final period of time in school before we'll get out of it. i really hope this is the last thing that gets them into trouble. xuan arhhs. please luhh. just study for now and leave everything aside hao marhhs?.. dont let everything else affect you. there's always me. just ring me up when you need to. love you girl.

HONEY! hees i'm missing you lots. trying to find the mat. but arhhs. still cant. i shall look around again. miss you lots. if only today was a friday? :D

i was so tired today early in the morning. i felt soo exhausted i just wanna skip school. super sick. down with flu and fever. i could fall asleep the entire night till it was almost four plus five. woahh. it is a torture. and at 5 plus i woke up for school. gosh! puked several times. didnt feel really well. my nose like a tap out of control. got me all irritated and frustrated. school was soo long. till 4.30 just because of some lame e maths timed practice paper.i dont understand why cant we do it during lesson time? its not like anything construstive is achieved during curriculum time. yuckks. then i still look forward to going out to relax. and now,.. my plans ruin.

finally the moment that i have been waiting for came. i met darling at serangoon mrt station where we'll head to my house and wait for me to get ready and get going. thus time i had three things in my mind that i wanna do. catch dark knight. i've been waiting all along. and also to eat my favourite mango ice-cream and lastly to get a nice packet of sweets. i could have guessed that today was not a good day afterall. to my dismay, i didnt even manage to get a single task done. whats this? i wanna give up le. i'm not in my luck lately. whats my problem? now i'm all stunned wondering if i should still trust that tomorrow will be better? darling, if only you understood how i was feeling, i wish you could help me through.

?,? FALLEN

gosh. i'm home after the meal at just asia, the study session at starbucks and dinner at somewhere near parklane. i hate departure scenes. i hate to leave you at head for the station to home. i wanna turn back to much. but i refrain myself from doing something that would make me feel worse. i mean.. what if i turn back?

hees. xuan said that i was mad today. i just made a casual remark. though its been months ever since darling and i got together, i haven got over being so amazed and surprised. from seeing from afar to getting to know one another for seven days and now having you by my side to keep me accompany. its super unbelivable. i may have repeated this many times but its just that i still cant contain the happiness.i'm so fortunate!

shall look forward to our next meeting. this friday alright? we'll finally have the time to watch our movie and then head to eat my favourite ice cream. as for the tree top walk.. and the beautiful sunrise scenery, we'll leave it to another time. hees. misses misses misses!

this day was spent with fariz,jasmine,jiale,manxuan,jes,nora,steven, ah bao and darling. its national day. so i shall start by saying happy national day to all! i love singapore. i love the way this occasion i made so special and that all seem so excited about it. well, i am not surprised to see soo many people, even those who werent singaporeans heading to cityhall and raffles place flooding the entire scene. we were a few who made up the crowd. hahas! everyone was awaiting for the fireworks.

i didnt enjoy it as much as everyone else. perhaps i didnt mean to spoil your mood. its just too much disappointment that overcame me. i am perhaps irritating. i probably didnt mean to. i just want you soo much by my side. maybe its just my luck that you didnt hear me call you. arhhhs. hurt. but whatever be it, its already over. i can see that many efforts you put in trying to please me and apologising to me.i loved the promise that you made to never leave me behind again. probably, its just assurance that i wanted.

the day ended off well. from getting our drinks at marina square's food court and then heading to the train station, heading to mac at j8 to slack. going home with my darling. thanks for trying to understand how i felt at that point of time. love you lots.

my dear girlfriend jes, please get over the troubles that you're facing. be strong and move on. be it whatever that happens, be comforted. i'll be here for you. just ring me up at any time you needed someone to be there. afterall, our friendship is made up of years of effort.loves!

met darling today again after my lesson in the morning. hahas. darling's such a sleepy pigg. hees. i told her to be down at 12.30 since lessons ended at noon. and she insist on 12. but eventually... i was still right to know she'll be late. muhahhaHAHS!kenna shoot.

me wifey, darling, baobei and jes went to the coffeeshop to eat and getting our bubble teas too. and soon after went to play at the playground. darling decided to try and got spinned. she look super duple funny. that cramped face! hahas. and she soon evolved to become a merlion. woahh. first time! weak siaaa! then went to play drums where darling got an encore stage( the least 100 sec extreme) impossible to play de lo. hees. probably need two pairs of hands. we went to study after playing. wifey did maths. i did science. while my darling did nothing and just slept throughout. lazzzyyyy.

wifey had to go home while cheeky darling collaborated with my wife to trick me to bugis.

eventually we went ps for awhile and walked to bugis. we had lots of fun laughing. darliong didnt even realise we were walking to a wrong direction. and only when i mention, she still ask me to trust that she'll bring me to our destination. arhhs how too? :DDDDDDD walked about bugis street and junction. ate quite a few stuffs that i've never tasted before. but... i shall not tell you what i have. >.<

darling i enjoyed this day very much. its super entertaining.

its been three months since darling and i came together. woahh thinking back, i just realised how time flies. from something that feels like a dream, and soon turning it to reality. remembering how everything even started i just cant help but to smile at how sweet things were.

we met up today at plaza sing with xuan and leo. and later bumping into jach and beat. woahh this world is really small. hahas . we played drums. chatted quite a bit. and even walked around in carrefour. i bought strawberry milk. while leo got ham and (i dont know what) drink. hahas. i heard about darling and leo's whhiipp cream story. sounds super interesting. its great fun having everyone around.

darling. misses. hahas. o0h i thought you're friend wanna come too? hahas. shall look forward to seeing your friend some other time again!

i'm sorry. i regretted. cause nothing is worth exchanging with my relationship with you.
its my fault to not react. i was dumb. i was foolish to actually let us quarrel.
but i cant lose you. now i'm all torn up inside. i seek for forgiveness.
please just give me a chance. i swear this time i've learnt.
just don ever leave me. life without you will be so empty. i do need you.
speak to me please. my eyes are gonna bleed.
give in to me once. i promise i wouldnt do it again.
NEVER NEVER NEVER leave me behind. i beg you.

hahas. was packing my stuffs when i came across some of the photos taken by my dad when i was much younger. a little kiddo then. hees. its today that i realised i haven changed a bit. gosh! the same habits, interest, and almost the same face( excluding the pimples, of cause!) hahas. i loved superman all the way till now?.. and the koala bears.. muhahahas. sooo amazing that i haven got sick of it after 13 years. read through my diaries that i wrote since i was in primary school. arhhs. i used to be soooo childish and weird.even made the effort to write in different colours. hees. sadly, i ain't that bothered nowadays..

i met darling for an hour or so after her training. hahas' showed her my picture in a superman costume. i loved that picture lots. time will never turn back. the picture is sooo precious now((: she stole my colourful diary"happy" and said she wanna bring home to scribble.. T.t she's gonna rape my sexy book! out to Happy's rescue.. i shall go!

blog blog blog. arhhs. i dont have much to write. but hherrmmmpphhs.
still sick.. throat hurts. dont want it to bleed forever.

-.- arhhs. i sound like a guy!

went home super early to get more rest. people around are also falling sick.
take lots of care my friends (((: hahas!

opps. darling is calling. so i shall go ! goood-byyes.

to: ferly rocks

there's little i can do or say. if looks is the thing you have against me, i'm so sorry.
i didnt choose the way i look. and PLEASE stop scolding my friends. and also, dont judge our friendships. its more like a thing between us. it doesnt seem right for you to comment.

should you have something very serious against me, just leave me and my friends alone. leave this blog of mine and get on with your life. i hope you'll not interfere or disrupt my life. if telling me off is what you wanna do, search me up face to face. i'll listen to see how reasonable are you and how much i've done wrong. but for now, i just wish that you'll leave my friends out of the matter. thanks so much.

woahhhs.. i'm soo super duper exhausted today.
ever since yesterday, i've been chionging lots of physics questions.
the test is tomorrow.. arhhs. my weakest chapters. i'm dead.
besides attending school and ssp, i went for tuition just now and came home only at 10
the nonstop revision and brushing up took me the entire day.
so shag. but i shall continue now doing my homework and reading up once more.

woahhhs.. i'm soo super duper exhausted today.
ever since yesterday, i've been chionging lots of physics questions.
the test is tomorrow.. arhhs. my weakest chapters. i'm dead.
besides attending school and ssp, i went for tuition just now and came home only at 10
the nonstop revision and brushing up took me the entire day.
so shag. but i shall continue now doing my homework and reading up once more.
i need a break!! hahas. probably after the test tomorrow =)

waiting hurts.
i wave..a white flag.
its blasting me off.

school's gonna reopen tomorrow. wahhahhs. i'm already suffering from monday blues. i totally got no idea what to bring to school. i shall just turn up with an empty bag >.<>

in the night, darling suggested we do esplanade. yeappie! i was overjoyed. its my favourite place. i find the scenery nice. we sat, chat, shared stories. eventually we took pictures. love love love my darling.

from tomorrow cant see darling often. gonna be misses till i go bonkers! looking looking looking forward to the weekends so i'll get to see you again. loves=)

woke up very early in the morning supposedly to meet jia at bishan. we're gonna be chefs together! darling is sooo evil. she lied to me saying she's not free and stuffs but eventually appearing at bishan with jia. but hahas! its not exactly a suprise...since i expected it! successful made the sandwiches at home while jia and darling dyed their hair. hahas. i find the colour super weird.

at sentosa,we took the monorail there. it wasnt very packed then. played games like soccer,volleyball,rugby and swam around too. today is all about fun, laughter,peace and joy. we didn't spend as much money as usual. but unfortunately on our trip back, the place was so squeezy. everyone was pushing around. we managed to slip into the monorail. there was a jerk and wifey took a small step back. his feet brushed onto the toes of a young lady. she screamed as though it hurt as much as giving birth. mad lady. attention seeking. her boyfriend gave this GL look. sooo exaggerating i cant take it. all in all,.. i find today so special and memorable!

met darling, jia, jach, beatrice and wifey came along soon after. we hanged aroung the arcade enjoying session plays. darling is mad dreaming about jamming all day long. jach and jia agreed and so she booked the studio. but hahas! its the first time i'm ever watch them play music. looked forward to it. we went in. kinda cramped though. darling played the drums while jis played the bass and jach sang while she played the guitar. hahas! i admire her coordination. its definately not easy. they played a few songs. one of which that i remembered more vividly was swing swing. darling was practically whacking the drums so hard, i couldnt hear jach's voice. though so, i loved the beats. darling looked super cute when she gets serious. but arhhs super super super pro! darling tried to sing with her kiddy voice and its soooo funny. sounded quite like those voices in cartoons with the addition of some slang.

thereafter, darling bought so much food saying she got hungry again. and they played with the meatballs or something like that. stuffing so many into their mouth. jach's mouth is the smallest! hahahs! the look on her face is hilarious beyond words. we planned and decided to go sentosa tomorrow. i shall wake up early to prepare food to feed everyone. woahh sounds like alot of fun tomorrow. yeappie!

hahas. finally we all got sick of dbg and decided to go somewhere different. xuan chose vivo and so we went. jia,xuan darling and i ate carls junior. super huge burger that was the size of our faces. luckily i shared the meal with jia. woahh.. darling was like an onion monster! and me happily chewing on my tomatoes. rather nice! we went to the open area walked around and spotted a couple.. lying on the grass and yuckks! they were doing their stuffs so openly. poor kids that are playing by the water would have learnt the wrong stuffs >.<>today is just sooo crazy!